Grace Beck Smith

Grace Beck Smith
15.03.01



In loving memory
to our darling Grace
who was sadley
Born asleep
love mammy and daddy

i was 35 when i found out i was pregnant with my first and only child. Kevin and i were ecstatic we
cried with joy. You see my pregnancy wasn't planned it just happened. I sailed through my pregnancy,
I loved being pregnant. Kevin set to work turning our spare bedroom into a nursery. I was given 28th
febuary as my due date we waited, no baby then 6th March as my second date, still no baby. I was 41
weeks gone so i was booked in to be induced on the 16th March. 12th March my labour started slowly
by the middle of the night of 13th March my contractions became quicker.

Me and Kevin went to hospital around 6am where i was given gas and air as that was the only pain
relief i requested after about an hour the midwife tried to break my waters, nothing happened. I was
put on a monitor around 8.00 am when a baby doctor arrived with student doctors and told me they
were giving me dia-morphine injection to ease my pain. I didn't think i needed it because i didn't
think i was in too much pain. But the doctor said it was nesessary. About half an hour later after
the injection the room was filled with doctors and midwifes. Kevin new there was a panic, i hadn't
realised. Then the doctor stood over me and Kevin and said there was no easy way to tell us but our
baby had died. That was the day part of me died too.

I would never be the same person again. Kevin was heartborken but he was the one who had to break
the news to our families. I don't know if it was but my body shut down my labour came to a
standstill. The midwifes and doctors prepared to start my labour again. In the meantime family and
friends started to arrive heartbrocken and grief stricken. I took 18 hours to re-start my labour. We
still didn't know if i was having a girl or a boy so at 2.33am 15th March i delivered a beautiful
perfect little girl who had a mop of hair down to her shoulders beautiful rosebud lips weighing 7lb
2oz perfect in every way. When i was due to deliver, Kevin (who had never left my side) and my mam
(my rock) willed me with all their strength to bring my baby into the world. When i delivered Grace
i held her immediatly and i thought with all my heart everyone had made a mistake and she was alive.


She was perfect and i will never forget as long as i live the warmth that came from her body. It was
the silence of our baby that brought me back to reality. Our baby was blessed and we had had decided
to call her Grace. I re-live those just about everyday. I will be forever greatful to my family
Kevins family and our friends for the rest of my life they rallied round in our time of need. I
found it hard to cope and will always be in dept to Kevin who was overcome with grief for being the
stronger one of the two of us and my mam for being my rock.

We allowed Grace to have a post-mortem carried to find out the reasons why this tragety happend. The
results showed Grace had died of streptacocis a bacterial bug. (From the MRSA family) which entered
my body juring labour and attacked Grace's lungs like pneumonia. Grace was our first and only child
and theres not a day goes buy we dont talk about what would have been. We will never get over losing
our beautiful baby girl and for the rest of our life's we will never understand. Grace will live on
in our lives, new additions to our families are told about the special angel we have watching our
families. I'll always know i will have Kevin buy my side and Grace will guide both of us through
whatever life throws at us but sometimes i think she visits while we are sleeping.

In september 2006 my mam (my rock) died of breastcancer, i relied on my mam so much to help me
through each day because sometimes i didn't want to burden Kevin with my pain because he was feeling
so much pain himself. If i didn't have Kevin i would be so alone. We loved and lost together and we
will always hold our baby in our hearts forever. x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x
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